R. L. Bailey's blog

I still love her

I indulged every moment we share.Your inferior wisdom lets me know that you care. There were times when I thought that my love for you was in vain.  There were times when I was in pain hearing other say your name. But they don't know the first thing about you. Where you was born how you came to be you, they have no clue. But I can't blame them for just wanting to fit in. Get in where they fit in. But you only hold a spot for those that stay true. Not just to themselves but also to you. The love affair we share is more of a group thing. I guess in a sense you could say that we swing. We Swing to the vibe that you give off. I remember when we first meet we hit it off. and me and you have taking off. taking off to other planets and other galaxies. Formed bonds that have caused me to create other fantasies. And I know others have made offspring from you. But I'm not a hater. For you I will be your captain saver. Cause you are my dream. Others my pimp you out but you are my queen. You keep me sane. You take away my pain. And no a rose is not as sweet by any other name. But they force you to change to bring them fame. To bring them fortune. They're all about gain. Can't they see that you are in pain. 20year you have been hurt and maimed. For the money they are draining you of your blood.

 

Hip Hop I wish you could go back to the way that you was.

I miss you

I miss how I can wake up on a Saturday morning and see you with a bowl of cereal watching cartoons. I miss how you could be right up under me when its two other couches in the room.  I miss sharing showers. I miss just napping you and I, on the lazy boy for hours. I miss the kids running around the house.  I miss how when I left my socks on the floor you'd chew me out.  I even miss how you would poke your finger in my dimple, and how Id grab your nose just to make it crinkle.  I miss taking road trips. I miss your lips. I miss how you'd laugh at me when I lost something that you found with out a try. I miss the smell of your hair, the green in your eyes. I miss the way you hit the snooze button and roll back over and how you get mad cause I brought home coke when you wanted a Pepsi Cola.  So if there is one thing evident one thing that hold up to be I true. I just miss you.....

head in the ground with jump boots on!!!!

Have you ever been low?.. I mean have you ever been so wrapped up in the nothingness that surrounds you. And Abyss with no signs of light, life or love. Where minds become vessels to the demon with end. This is my constant burn. My Swastika to bear. Finding judgment for my sins in my narcissist loathing. Soaking in the blood shed, from the tip of my sheer. I endear this only in hopes I can find restitution for all of my sin. But I know my faith soon bring about and end. So I stay Low!!!

Grammatical Pawn ( My GPS in my heart stop working. But the map in my brain still can get me home)

You speak of sadness, as if you was never lent a helping hand. But its the pride in you that tells you, that hand makes you less of a man. Yet ever limb is in tact. In fact, your sadness grows with ever turn down pact.  The cause of your fall is not in what you lack. But it is in the fact you don't use the tools that you was givin. Why are you not drivin? I see you rather forfeit then take a chance and lose.  Keep sleeping on the clock . And you'll fine in life there is no snooze.  Wake up my friend. Just might be your time to take a spin and win. Only time can tell. Cause dreams aren't that loyal you don't feed them they will fly away. And Triple A don't make pit stops on the emotional highway. Fix your own flat. Cause no matter where you are headed on this one way track. Life has no reverse. There's no turning back.

Id like to watch you drown in a lake of fire..... but id still save you in the end

I burn. Im engulfed by the pain. Enriched by this overflow of emotion. I am no longer me.  I am nothing I set out to be. I wonder when will I ever accomplish anything I set out to do.  I look at me and wonder. Who?  Who is this person you become. No more then I can bear but I buckle from fear.

I burn. I long to quench the thirst of  my soul deprive this demon of life. If it means I have to die. I will. I will destroy my flesh and set me free. I want, I need, I long to be me.  No longer thru the serpents eyes do I want to see.. Cause he craves blood. And I cry for love. 

I burn. I expect my final day on earth to be and epiphany.  But this final level of understand was not for me. It was for the man that longs to be free. He will finally see that he burns.

Battle of Marathons, Fireworks and Funds

The game done flipped like the coin at a kick off. I try my best to digress but the industry got me pissed off. Never been a rapper. Rather teach to the masses. While niggas is jock-in asses. I'm focus like I wore glasses. Got a chick that's willing to ride to the death like Jacqueline Onassis. I'm from were we've all seen hard knocks, blocks, rocks, and cops. Park that Benz in the wrong spot I bet its getting chopped. Seen the hood reach out take a young man’s soul. Aint made out his 30's but you'd swear he was old.. We all struggle for gold. For a price that could come from the tip of a needle. Lies the root of our evil.  Spitting that Dark Age flow hard body like armor from da mid-evils. Direct it right, cause life don’t come with a sequel. My brothers I do beseech you. Because haters really think that they're close to our equals. The sky is where I reach too. Steady looking for a sign. Close your eyes young one. You should be looking in your mind. I was born to be a soldier. Early on my grind like a fresh pot of Folgers. I can't stop till it's over.  And we might have cross paths. Geometry plans get back up on your math. I covered a lot of soil. 2^nd time remove from the land of burning oil.

one more smoke in the persian sun.....

The heat goes through me, as I came upon the sun.  Bring down the stars the moon for one. And its burn lets down for none. Holding a need to refresh my lungs. A longing to quench my thirst. As I stood in the sand. On the land where humanity began. The sky holds and illusion. You can almost see where air and the horizon are fusing. But this just might be my own dilution.  But for God and Country this can not be disproving. Taring to the day I see you again. As I stood in the sand. On the land where humanity began.

I dream of us at the alter... And I had words in my head!!!!!

Trying to be the man she needs, before I fell that its to late... Chanting in a circle debating wither or not whose heart can feels more space. No matter which one's the latter we still can ignore our fate. And I still can't deny your face. I want you like its and addiction. To death I must fall, before they take my position. Listen!!! This is what it would be, before we even started this... Now that its here. I invest my heart in it....regardless of the people on the outside looking in. Cause you will forever be more then my lover. You're my best friend!!!

you and I, plus your friends leaves me nowhere!!!

As I burn my self away, wondering where you are..... My tears never make it to my face..... You speak of hurt as if you never gave out more then you can handle.... But who's really to blame, cause I speak of love like its real.......... The lies don't go away... the same ones told to keep us near... The same ones that will rip us apart again..... This is you and me till we end... But who draws that line? 

Return to 6teen(Lyrical Roots)

I'ma take Andre's side and go for show-time...Yall can have the prime-time..../

 Must be the money cause these haters trying to take mine.../

Stop jockin B.E.Z. Jock jockin... Don't sleep.... Like the kid aint ill./

Im ah Anbein overdose.... knock you strait out like 50m of Seroquel...../

 

 Watch the flo steady build.... Dexter Morgan a track.... cause ever beat I got to kill..../ (Killa)

 ATL breed NYC feed... Kansas got me off my back.... so Ima put them on the map..../

 I done been to Iraq... Can't tell me shit man...  I done got my money right....../

 Kanye whip game...Even got a sick chick.../

 

 Guess I got her froze from the ice in the sick chain../

and the 10akey watch got to be hurting her too..../

Hell I can't tell the time cause the rocks blocking my view..../

If you at the top spot..... then I'm comin for you..../

 

But I dont want your's...... I'm trying to get me my own.../

Less you plan on hatin and trying to stop me.. I will destroy and rebuild on your property.../

Set up shop and pump out ya block... non stop mane..../

Cause no matter what........ i get'em off like Cochan.....What!!!!/